Crazy is the Forecast All Week
Monday, March 23, 2015
You never know when it starts until there's fog inside the glass around your summer heart.
Maybe it's because it's the Ides of March, and it's just got me in the blogging mood (even though there's no official challenge this year).
More likely, though, it's this feeling. It's strong enough to break my (unintentional) radio silence.
This has been the most challenging year of my life. Marriage is a cake walk (in my case) when you put it up against a major career change. Becoming a teacher has been the most eye-opening transition of my life. I haven't yet decided if it is the best decision I've ever made or the worst. It changes weekly/daily/hourly.
Aside from all that, there's been an unsettled feeling as of late. I know exactly where it's coming from. It's been here before but not in a while. And never this intense. It's seeping into every area of my consciousness. It makes me feel like my skin is crawling. And it makes me feel as though nothing in my life is complete.
That's mostly it.
Monday, May 12, 2014
Take my arms that I might reach you.
I have been feeling insanely restless. I've noticed that this mostly occurs when I'm at work. I just feel like my insides are going to burst. I want to laugh and cry and run around and close the door and not talk to anyone. This could be because I'm in the throes of my final three weeks working in the same place for 11+ years, a place that has felt like my home in the past but now feels impossibly far from home. Everything is different. I've been desperate to leave for at least a year, but now that it's upon me, I feel like a kid lost at Disney World. I'm in a place that I've been trying to reach for so long, but being alone makes me anxious and terrified.
I'm not afraid of the future. I never have been. I've always been one to welcome change, whether big or small. I know that this is what God has in store for me and my family. The endless possibility of furthering my career is something I've never been more excited about. But I'm just restless.
I could really use a Buffy and pizza night about now.
Monday, April 21, 2014
Easy like Sunday morning.
I got to go see TC early Sunday morning, too. He hasn't been feeling well since the boys came back from Vegas. His best friend went to the doctor and she told him this is quite common because of the desert air. So TC ran out of cough drops on the boat and used everyone else's cough drops, as well. They were stopping at a small fleet about 20 minutes away from our house on Sunday morning, so I offered to bring him some, along with some soup I had made, some leftover pasta salad, and some cookies for the rest of the guys. Well, turns out their stop was at 4 in the morning. But I had already said I would, so I woke up at 3 and went out to the fleet. It was worth it to be able to say hello to him in person.
He'll come home Thursday, and we'll have another whirlwind weekend. Rehearsal dinner Thursday night, wedding stuff all day Friday (I'll work for a few hours in the morning, too), and another wedding Saturday night. I always look forward to even the busy weekends, because it means we'll get to be with friends and family. The lack of free time and sleep is an important investment. These are the people who will be in our lives and our future children's lives forever, and I'm grateful for the happy memories.
This past weekend was wonderful spending time with my family. Friday I got to go shopping with my mom. Her boyfriend is taking her on a secret vacation, and she needed some bathing suits. We bought her two bikinis, a really cute one-piece, and a cover up. She was pretty pleased. Saturday I went to my uncle's house to spend time with my dad's side of the family. I don't get to see this side of the family as often as my mom's, so it was really nice. We hadn't gotten together for Easter in years. I have wonderful family on both sides. Sunday was Easter at Mom's house, where we spent time with her side. My in-laws joined there, as well. I feel so fortunate to have cousins who are like siblings to me. I couldn't get through life without the support of my family. I certainly missed all my out-of-towners, though!
It just hit me that I made a happy post! Hooray!
Monday, April 7, 2014
I don't want to follow Death and all of his friends.
It has been a crazy/difficult weekend. TC went back to work Thursday after spending a really great two days home with me. I took off of work one of those days because this month is one of those months where between overtime and each of us traveling to different places, we wouldn't have much time together. We had a great day of golf, grocery shopping, getting lots done around the house, and cooking/eating a delicious dinner.
Friday night I got a phone call from his best friend's fiancée. His father passed away. There were really awful circumstances surrounding it. It was exactly three weeks to their wedding day. Since TC was on the river and sleeping at that moment, it was my job to call the wheelhouse and ask Captain E to have someone wake him up and call me so I could tell him. It isn't easy telling your husband that a man who had been a second father to him for a majority of his life had left us. He and his best friend are closer than brothers. I've said on a number of occasions that I know I rank second to him and it's fine with me because he is such a good, responsible, caring person and would never lead him in the wrong direction. So TC docked the boat and came home yesterday because it just couldn't be put off any longer. We spent last night with he and his fiancée (who has become a close friend of mine) just talking quietly together and separately. Today TC is with him and his mother doing some of the difficult things that come along with all of this.
I could not be more thankful and proud of the man that he is. Mr. Pat helped mold that man, and I know that I have to send some of those thanks to him.
Saturday, March 29, 2014
I don't care what they say about us, anyway.
This has been an overwhelming week for me. There are a lot of possible paths that my future can take at this point, and I'm basically just waiting on an email.
When I first heard about the Weezer show, I thought, Awesome! Something to do Friday night! But as the week's events unraveled (not unlike a sweater), the idea of staying home and getting things done and reflecting took over. I opted out.
I don't often regret the choice to stay home on a Friday night while TC is working, but this time I do. Here's why.
Some time around the ages of 11-13, our family got its very first desktop computer. I always enjoyed the typewriter we had (yes, I'm 85 years old, kids), but there was something about this box that I could type on but could also hold all kinds of information. I grew to love just researching on our encyclopedia program (pre-Internet) or playing my little brother's PC Lego game. One day while I was checking out what other cool stuff this thing had, I remembered part of the demo from the store was a music video. So I went searching. I found two videos, one of which was the music video for Weezer's "Buddy Holly".
Growing up in a strict Christian household at that time meant no secular music. For some reason (actually, probably because the video looked like an episode of Happy Days, which was NEVER banned at our house), my parents were cool with letting us watch this video. The song was unlike anything I'd ever heard. It was up-tempo and catchy and the guys singing it were just so darned cute! Also, I loved Happy Days and everything about the era which it portrayed. I'm not ashamed to say that part of me thought this was actually an old song. I was young. Anyhow, Weezer introduced a genre of music to me that I grew to love. Part rock, part pop, and sung by cute boys. I really feel that they are at the very core of the songs and artists that I love the most.
And that's why I hate myself for not going to that show. Here's hoping I get the chance again someday. Hold me accountable, folks.
Tuesday, March 25, 2014
For me you'll always be 18 and beautiful and dancing away with my heart.
That Jason Mraz song I was talking about last post is called "A Beautiful Mess", not "Here We Are". Sah-ree.
I'm having a tough week emotionally. It can probably mostly be blamed on hormones and such. I just really miss TC this week. He's working overtime, so he won't be home until next Tuesday. And then he'll go right back Thursday. Tug life. Job/family also has me down, but that's nothing new. I really hope this teaching thing works out. I have a good feeling about it after my interview yesterday, but it is going to be difficult not having my own salary for 7 weeks. We're gonna test this marriage thing right out of the gates with that one.
They opened up a tobacco novelty store directly next door to my office. It's been closed since Friday. I imagine it has something to do with all the synthetic marijuana raids that have been going on. I have a very personal vendetta against that stuff. I've seen it hurt a lot of people close to me, both directly and indirectly. Anyhow, this morning I was walking out to the mailbox when I saw an older man in a little truck seeming to be looking at the smoke shop. He then proceeded to stop his truck, taking up both a handicapped parking spot and a regular parking spot, to hop out and peer into the window. I guess he didn't realize he forgot to put his truck in park, because it started rolling toward my car. I hollered at him that his truck was rolling away, and he just looked at me sadly and got back into it and left. This is what synthetic marijuana is doing to people. They become completely disoriented and throw their lives away to put this harmful chemical in their bodies. There's so little that can be done about it, because it's sold as "potpourri", and when one strand is banned, they come up with a new one by tweaking the chemicals just a bit. I beg all of you, if you know anyone experimenting with this garbage, do your best to talk some sense into them.
This evening, I get to go pick up the disc with all my wedding photos AND my first Spring CSA box. So I will have a night full of recipe planning and cleaning and chopping and photo choosing for all my pretty frames. Hopefully that will cheer me up, but it still feels like it'll be a long week.
But I DO get to see so many people I care about this weekend (including my long-lost L) at Megan & Simpson's wedding. Both of my parents and their significant others are invited, and last I heard they were both planning on coming. That should be interesting. Here's hoping that doesn't ruin the weekend!
Friday, March 21, 2014
It kind of hurts when the kind of words you write kind of turn themselves into knives.
Today was a stupid day.
I tried to salvage it by grocery shopping, eating leftover pizza, baking brownies and watching Veronica Mars for the second night in a row.
Now I'm just very tired, and I'm going to call TC so I can talk to him before bed. The nights where I get to do that are few since I don't typically stay up late enough for him to wake up for his night/morning hitch. But tonight I did. And I think that will help.
Thursday, March 20, 2014
All things are gonna happen naturally.
As many of you don't know yet (because I didn't want to jinx anything--I AM NOT PREGNANT), I have recently applied to a teacher practitioner program with the Louisiana Resource Center for Educators. It's a program that would involve, providing I am accepted, a seven-week, full time course over the summer to prepare me to become a teacher. After that, I would start teaching full time. Meaning? In the Fall, boom, I'm a teacher. This is a bit terrifying, but even more so exhilarating.
When I first thought of even looking into something like this, I did the research and also asked some of the people I interact with daily what they would think of me becoming a teacher. The general consensus was, "Well, yeah. Isn't that what you were planning to do anyway?" And you know what? It was! When I finally decided to pursue my bachelors degree for the final time, that WAS my plan. Get a degree in whatever I could get a degree in quickest and look for a program which would allow me to become a teacher. But, you know, life happened, and I forgot all about it. Once I actually decided that I would apply to this program, it was a situation something like, "Oh yes, we'll accept your application--for the next five days. Have we mentioned you also have to take Praxis II?" So it was a bit of a hurried decision. But the kicker was that I didn't once feel stressed out or rushed. I made all the calls to have past test scores and school records sent to the center and scheduled my test in a matter of minutes. (I took it this past Saturday morning. I got a 174. 150 is passing. Can someone teach me about American government? I seem to be lacking in the knowledge department there.)
Teaching seems to me like something natural, something I could just fall into. When I think about lesson plans and grading and such, however, I get a little panicky. I have to keep reminding myself that I have not yet been educated about these things and that I will be educated about these things if I am accepted into the program.
Today I got an email from LRCE telling me that they wanted to have an in-person interview with me. So come Monday morning, this is all going to become a little more real. I wanted to finally let the cat out of the bag so that you guys can pray for me! I need God's Will to be done so badly. I don't know all of His inner workings, but I do feel so strongly that I am not where He wants me to be right now.
Wednesday, March 19, 2014
Welcome back, welcome back, welcome back.
Well, hello again, Blogspot. Sorry it's been so long. Nine months and some change. You can thank the lack of school for me not blogging. It was sort of one of my school routines. And you can thank the Ides of March for getting me back. Which I completely forgot about. So I guess you have Stephanie to thank.
I'm a married lady now. Mrs. TC. Everyone keeps asking if it feels any different. It does, and it doesn't. We lived together for a year before getting engaged, so we sort of got used to the boundaries that go along with living together. But there's a sense of uncompromising teamwork that is more intense now. So. Marriage.
Speaking of weddings, 'tis the year. Babies, too. Other big changes, as well. But I'll save that for tomorrow.
Wednesday, June 12, 2013
You've got a face to call home.
Mom and I are going to New York for the weekend, and I'm just so very excited. I haven't been since two Novembers ago, and that's just far too long. There was a second of time when TC and I were discussing taking a short honeymoon there right after the wedding, but we've since changed that plan to New Orleans to save a little more money for the big France trip next fall. I'm going to get my fill of pastrami and bagels and Broadway and pizza and Barney Greengrass and the best cookies on Earth while I can. Oh, and shopping. As I've already found and purchased my wedding gown, we're going to look for a gown for Mom. And of course there'll be H&M. There's ALWAYS H&M.
Man, this wedding stuff is tiring. It's super fun, but it's a little strange feeling like I get to make the decisions and that it's about me. I've never been huge on party planning, but it's fun. Honestly, I've gotten past the initial excitement about MY WEDDING and gotten back to the point of it being a day celebrating TC's and my decision to share our lives together. I truly can't wait to be his wife.
Work has actually felt like work lately. Now that I'm finished extending my adolescence and graduated from college, I have to work every day like a grown-up. I don't hate it, but I'm just reminded of how much easier it is to work when patients aren't here. I get so much more done on Tuesdays and Thursdays, AND I can be more relaxed. Especially since right now we have a few patients who are just mentally exhausting. And since my "office" is in the lobby, they think I'm here to talk about senseless things while they wait an hour for their transportation to come get them. I don't dislike patients. I just dislike some people. But I'm never rude to them. I know better than that.
Wednesday, May 15, 2013
Faces pass, and I'm homebound.
The closer and closer graduation gets to me, the more I want to not walk. I'm going to, of course, because my mom and TC would both have words for me if I didn't, but I'm, just typically lazy and don't want to. I just want to go to Disney World, to be honest with you.
The weekend after we get back from Miami, I'm going wedding dress shopping for the first time. I hate trying things on. You know what would be perfect? If I found the dress on my very first shopping trip. Heck, the very first dress I put on. That happens, right?
I happen to be feeling exceptionally lazy lately.
Wednesday, May 8, 2013
I hope you're the last words I ever utter.
Why do I love it?
Well, I booked my wedding today! The date will be Saturday, February 8, 2014. The ceremony and reception will both be held at the same place, a small plantation not far from TC's parents' house and where we went to high school. It's going to be lovely. I also love today because I got my fingernails and toenails all polished up real pretty for some friends' wedding this weekend. I went with TC's best friend's fiancee. We joke that those boys always have to do everything together, including, apparently, get married. (Side: As much as I love getting complimented on my ring, I suppose I'll forever have to answer the question, "Is that a YELLOW diamond?" Oh well. First world problems.) Also, TC comes home tomorrow, and I get him for an extra couple of days this time around.
Who do I loathe it?
I need to clean the house, and I know I won't have time unless I practically kill myself tonight. I still have to write my Louisiana history essay, our final exam in the class. And I'm pretty sure I'll have a to read a lot before doing so. I just cannot bring myself to do it. I sat in traffic on Essen Lane today. It made me want to take my car off-road and/or smash it into every other car on the road (oh, except you actually have to be GOING at some speed to do that).
(I feel super annoying when I blog nowadays. Maybe once school is over I'll have more interesting things to talk about.)
Thursday, May 2, 2013
Goin' to the chapel, and we're gonna get ma-a-a-ried!
He did a phenomenal job on my ring. The only tips I ever gave him were that I really love yellow diamonds and that pear shape is my favorite.
He had asked me a month or so ago about rings, but the way he asked made it seem like it was just a passing thought. I thought maybe it could happen some time this year, but I've gotten into the habit of not getting my hopes up about anything, so he completely caught me off guard.
He was really sneaky about it. I was out running errands on my lunch break yesterday, and he decided we should go get lunch and use one of our coupons that have been piling up. So we went to Bay Leaf, one of our new favorite places. After lunch, he told me I should follow him to his parents' house so that we could put his grandfather's old ironing board, which is to be ours now, into my car. I suggested we just switch vehicles, but he insisted he needed to put some wood in the back of his truck so we both needed to go. So off we went. When we got there, he told me to go to the front door because that's the only door his key works on. Once he met me up there, he got his keys out to unlock the door, and conveniently dropped them on the ground. Just as I was turning to him to make a smarty pants comment about him being clumsy, he's kneeling there with a ring asking me to marry him. I think I just stared at him confused for about 30 seconds. That is truly a moment I will never forget for as long as I live. The way his voice sounded, the nervous/excited look on his face, everything. It wasn't anything elaborate, but it was just so perfect.
He tells me he was planning to wait until my graduation. He had just picked up the ring yesterday morning, and obviously it was burning a hole in his pocket.
I'm just thrilled. Also, I'm completely terrified and stressed out, and I feel so rushed. Uuuuggggghhhhhh.
Tuesday, April 30, 2013
Worry, why should I care?
I'm so close to being done with this college foolishness, I can taste it. I can also taste Disney World. It tastes like turkey legs and sweet cream pretzel bites and Mickey Mouse ice cream bars. And it's pretty much all already paid for. And the whole month of May seems so surreal.
Yesterday The Captain and I did a whole lotta yard work. We replaced yucky lava rock with nice, smooth river rock in the rock bed off of our back patio. I'm happy it's done, but y'all, shoveling rocks is exhausting. Especially when you pair it with also shoveling tons of garden soil and cutting the entire yard. I was a bad girl, and I didn't wear sunscreen. I'm paying for it today, believe you me. (Why do people say that? It's odd.) Our shed expansion is coming along nicely, as well. I MAY be able to do some demo when I get home from class today.
We're having my mom and her boyfriend over for dinner tonight. Should be interesting. He and TC are super similar in a lot of ways. He talks a lot. TC loves talking. Seriously, the dude could stay up until sunrise just talking with his buddies outside on the swing. He does on a regular basis.
OH! This past weekend, we went to TC's cousin's fishing camp to make deer sausage. I didn't think it would be so much fun to grind raw meat. I had a blast! There may be a meat grinder in my near future. (Sorry, bank account.) We also picked POUNDS of blackberries. Beautiful, juicy blackberries. Needless to say, I'll be making fruit cobbler for the first time tonight. And probably again tomorrow.
WOW! Teacher just came in and said we can go home! Yes!
Tuesday, April 23, 2013
He's been gone for such a long time.
I'm not even stressed out about it like I usually am when he comes home from the river.
He just forwarded me the dinner reservation he made for us for Friday night. He's finally taking me to a place downtown that I've been wanting to try for a while now. It's my reward for holding down the fort without him for three weeks.
Wednesday, April 17, 2013
Caught up in sorrow, lost in a song.
Monday, April 15, 2013
Please come to Boston.
Friday, April 12, 2013
Take me far away from here.
If that word creeps you out, read no further.
We have two outside garbage cans at our lovely home. One of which has no lid. Now you'd THINK that one would not put garbage bags containing foodstuffs into said lidless can. Apparently this is not always the case. Because this fine, chilly morning, I go to place some scraps into the lidded can only to find a mountain of maggots inside the lidless can atop one scrawny bag.
I had a TERRIBLE day at work today, but I knew I had to do something about this situation when I got home. I got myself a bottle of bleach and poured a good amount into the can. Then I took the hosepipe and sprayed...and sprayed...and dumped...and sprayed...and dumped...and sprayed...for probably a half hour. I can basically guarantee that there were THOUSANDS of maggots in there. And now they're all in the grass. And I'm sure that's not the last of them I'll see.
I need some ice cream.
Thursday, April 11, 2013
Maybe this mattress will spin on its axis and find me on yours.
From May 18th to June 18th, I'm going to three separate destinations. Disney trip with the ladies has also become a jumping-off point to long weekend in Miami. I'll let the girls take my car home that Friday, and I'll rent a car, drive to the airport in Ft. Lauderdale to meet up with TC, and then get picked up by his uncles to spend Memorial Day weekend at their condo in South Beach. Then just a couple of short weeks later, I'll take a long weekend with my mom in NYC to see her beloved Tom Hanks in Lucky Guy (I think that's what it's called). So I've got a pretty packed summer ALREADY.
In other news, my best friend from high school (who is still one of my best friends) is having a baby! Like, today. Like, RIGHT NOW. I'm hoping to be able to meet him Saturday morning, providing Lauren is okay with a pit-stop in Mandeville on the way to New Orleans. I can't wait! As adorable as both she and her brother were as babies, I can only imagine how cute he'll be. I'm just so sad I can't be there with her through the labor.
Tuesday, April 9, 2013
I will carry you there.
So my biggest assignment of the semester, my English research paper, is done. I'm also almost done with my History translation project. I still have an Excel project to do this week and another research paper due in a few weeks, along with reading and studying for tests. But, funnily enough, I feel like I'm already done. I don't know if that's a good thing or a bad thing.
I have too many things to do on Saturday. I wish that were not the case. I'd really love to clean my house.
Sunday, April 7, 2013
Friday, April 5, 2013
They're trying to wash us away.
"During the city's lush decades, just about everything the Mississippi Valley sent to eastern markets had to pass through New Orleans, as did all the buttons and textiles, shoes and wine, that mid-America received in exchange. It was as though the city were the drain plug in an immense bathtub."
I love this state, and I'm excited to learn more about it from this book. I already have two people who want to borrow and read it when I'm done.
Thursday, April 4, 2013
Who knew that love was so cruel?
The day before Easter the first of the baby boys that all my friends seemed to be pregnant with right now were born. Sweet twins named Clint and Douglas born to one of my greatest friends. I went to visit them at a hospital I've never been to on Easter Sunday before I went to my mom's house for lunch. I held them both at one time, which is something I had never done before. (I mean the holding two infants at once thing.) Clint was not fond of having the light on and kept trying to tuck his little head into his swaddled blanket, whereas Douglas was just passed out regardless of light. And they looked quite different, even for infants. Douglas looked much more like his big sister. I think I should try to visit them this weekend again.
That is, if my life isn't sucked into a black hole of assignments. I have semester projects due in three of my classes next week. Aaaaaaaand I have hardly begun any of them. Aside from Buffy night Friday and babysitting Saturday evening, I will be a shut-in this weekend. But if I can just get through this week, the rest of the semester should be relatively smooth sailing. Right up until graduation. And Disney World. Ahhhhh, 43 days.
Wednesday, March 27, 2013
Yours is the first face that I saw.
Tuesday, March 26, 2013
When I graduate...
52 days.
Monday, March 25, 2013
Send your heartbeat; I'll go to that blue ocean floor.
Sunday, March 24, 2013
She leads me through moonlight only to burn me with the sun.
Anywho, I've been thinking about New York so much lately. It's been two Novembers since I've been, and I'm needing it pretty badly right about now. I want to eat onion bagels for breakfast and pizza for dinner. I want to go to Barney Greengrass, and I want to walk the streets by myself. I want to see a Broadway show, then have breakfast for dinner at the Stardust. I want to try a million different coffee shops. I want to go to the Met for a few hours. I want to go back to the wax museum. I really want The Captain to come along so I can experience the city with him for the first time. He went when he was a kid and didn't like it, but I think going as an adult can change his mind. Especially going with me. We could exercise in Central Park. And then we could use all the calories we burned on the delicacies that only New York City has to offer.
I'm dying for you, New York.
Saturday, March 23, 2013
So this is what you meant when you said that you were spent.
Last September I went to Lake Tahoe with The Captain, his family, and his dad's family. The purpose of the trip was to spread his grandmother's ashes in her favorite part of the lake, Emerald Bay, which we did (*cough*illegally*cough*). Of course, we had a few other things on the list while we were there. One of those things was white water rafting, which I had never done before. TC and his family had.
We were with a large group, so the group was split into three rafts with three separate instructors. In one boat was myself, TC, TC's cousin, TC's sister's friend, and our instructor. In another raft was the rest of his family, and in the third raft was the rest of the group. I'm not much for extreme sports, but I like to say that I'll try anything, so I was really scared but also very excited. Truth be told, we had a lot of fun--most of the time. Our leader was a really nice, young, hippie guy, but I'm not sure he was quite as experienced as the others. This is where I could kick myself for being a part of the "young" group.
It's been a while, so I can't remember now if I went under twice or thrice. I feel like there was one time where I fell in by myself, but I can't be sure. The perhaps second time, it was TC and myself, as we were both on the same side of the raft. This wasn't so bad. The water was cold, but by that time we'd had a long ride in the sun, and it felt nice to be wet. We did everything they told us to do if we fell in, and we were rescued almost immediately. The perhaps third time was not so calm. It was toward the end, and there were lots of rocks and rapids. This time our entire raft flipped, and there was no hope for any of us.
[Side note: I had splurged ($80) on a nice, new pair of sunglasses at the golf shop the day prior, something I just never do. Spoiler alert: They didn't make it.]
Let me just tell you, that was the scariest moment of my life. Up to this point, I was sure that no matter where I fell into the water, I would survive. But in this moment, I was sure that I was going to smash my head into a rock or get my foot stuck on something and drown. It was close to impossible to put our feet in the air as we were instructed to do. There was a moment when my body was just being dragged across rocks (smooth ones, thankfully). When we were finally rescued by another raft, I was having a full-on panic attack. Once I realized everyone was accounted for, I calmed down, and thankfully, the trip was almost over. From that point forward, though, I was sure every rock I saw was going to plunge me into the river again.
All in all, I had fun. I faced a fear, and I survived. Would I do it again? Absolutely. But probably not any river with a higher difficulty than what we did that day.
Friday, March 22, 2013
Aren't you something to admire?
Guys, I just need prayer and motivation and accountability.
I'm making myself a note for my mirror that says, "The decision is made. You WILL do this."
Thursday, March 21, 2013
You could be my strawberry bubblegum, and I could be your blueberry lollipop.
Wednesdays are the worst. Either I have to work all day then go home to clean the house before The Captain comes home the next day or I have to work all day then be sad because TC is leaving the next day. There's not really a win.
Thursdays are nice. Either TC comes home, and I'm happy, or TC leaves after being here a whole week, and I can look forward to getting things done around here. Of course, this time around I only got him for two days, if you can even call it that. But I tell ya, it gets harder and harder to let him go. The past couple of weeks with him home were super productive. Maybe it's because Spring is in the air. Maybe it's Maybelline.
I probably talk about him too much on here. I promise he's not all I think about. It's just nicer thinking about him than school....or work....or otherwise.
Goodness, May is going to be a good month. So good, that I'm convinced it will never arrive. Come ooooonnnnn, May!