Hey blog. I always forget to blog when I'm happy. Sorry about that. This one is probably another downer.
Life has been overwhelming lately. It seems like no matter what, I can't keep up with what I always could. Like cleaning my house. I'll get started one day, then I'll have something to leave the house for. Even if it's for a minute, an interruption means I'll never finish. Yesterday I swept the floor, so I'm pretty pumped about that. Just getting the dog hair up keeps me sane sometimes.
I think maybe it's school that's making me crazy. I really like my classes this semester, but they require a lot of reading. Reading takes a lot of time. Time is generally something I don't have much of. I actually already had to drop one class because I completely forgot to take the first test. It was a computer lab test, and the week I was supposed to schedule it was a week that my personal life took a major blow. And so I forgot about it. And I didn't realize until the next week. So clearly that class had to be dropped. That ended up helping me out, though, because that was the class that had a service learning project attached to it, which probably would have been the death of me. I enjoyed the work involved, but I would not have enjoyed the paper I would have had to write at the end of the semester. Lord knows I already have enough of those.
Money is super stressing me out, too. I LOVE my friends, but there are a lot of birthdays and weddings this month. And I LOVE buying people gifts, but my bank account is pretty upset with me right now. And the buying isn't over yet. And I just want to have money to travel.
My love life is doing well (I think). But even that comes with its issues. I just don't know how permanent things are, and it terrifies me a little. I'm getting much deeper into this than I intended to, and I'm having so much fun. The examples I've had of lasting relationships lately, however, have led me to believe that I can't trust anyone. And I don't want to be that person, that bitter, untrusting, jaded girl. But it's REALLY hard not to be right now.
I just want to be at a place where I can hope for something.
i love you, ashleigh... and i'm glad any time you post! :)
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