I kind of take pride in myself being so emotionally independent most of the time. I don't usually need anyone to reassure me that things will be better and that I'll be okay. Typically, I do what I need to do as far as grieving goes and my brain works out the rest. I know things will always get better when they feel like they won't. My mind is almost trained to believe that, I suppose.
But then there are times, and it seems like it's been happening a lot more lately, where something will upset me, and I feel like I just don't want to be alone. Like I just want someone to tell me it will be okay, not need, just want. It's times like this that I realize that no matter how okay I feel being alone, I don't want to be alone anymore. I don't want to be alone anymore.
I'm so thankful for all of the people in my life who will always listen and always offer me words of advice or comfort when I need them. I feel like I need to give a super shout-out to Lauren here. You're all so important to me, but I feel like Lauren just gets me. I really do think we can read each others' minds sometimes. It may be because of the extremely similar situations we've both gone through, but whatever the case, I know she can usually know what I'm feeling without me having to say much, and vice versa.
I'm just having a rough night, I guess.
aw, ashleigh...i hate rough nights...lauren sure is great though...although i'm not in your situation, i understand how you feel if that makes sense? and, i really do believe that it IS going to be okay... btw, you should have come over here - you know i love to listen to these things...(nic is at a man-gathering)
ReplyDeleteOh no! I wasn't even here for your rough night! I had no idea! We can talk about it over coffee in the morning but I love you very much and i'm glad that we could always fall asleep leaning against each other in a time of war (referencing forrest gump here if you couldnt tell)
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